current mood: sad, angry, frustrated, irritated
why?i wake up early just to prepare my math class. all i know it will start by 12pm but guess what it starts at 11am. i was 1 hour late. i went to school by 12pm and i don't see anybody in our room,so i texted my classmate if we have a class. she saud we have, they were on the computer lab so that's why they were not in our regular class room. she told me that they started at 11am. i got irritated. i got mad to myself. why i don't know this. PUTA!. LOL. i decided not to attend my class anymore because im very late. im one hour late. baka pagalitan pa ko. wag n lnga pumasok besides i think he will consider me absent because i was one hour late.. amft.. i still have class in 3pm but it was suspended daw. don't know why.. naiinis talga ako.! im ready to go to school today, im on the good mood, before i sleep last night i told myself that im gonna go to school today. because saturday class for me is really boring.! when im on the mood ganto pa un ngyari! who won't be irritated right? FORGET IT!
well, im not really on the good mood. im frustrated to what happened today. i don't know!. i hate college days...i wish i was still highschool. if i go to school in the morning till afternoon na un. i won't be absent. but now. im tempted to be absent for the long breaks. i fell asleep and when i woke up i was late for my next class. it really sucks right?kainis! im getting 20 by april yet im still childish. i don't know if somethingc changed with my attitude. i should be matured enough and more responsible right? but i can't feel that im already 3rd year college that i have to focus on what im doing. for me everything is just a game. il just study if i know i have to do but when laziness strikes on me oh well i won't go to school and sleep all day!...i hate doin that but i hate not to do that. yeah i don't like a long hour lecture.just give all your notes and il just study it for myself and il be ready for the quizes. i hate boring class. the professor is a big factor on me also the classsmates and the environment. i was weirdo?right?
during my highschool days it was really memorable. i do have lot of friends. i was inspired to study more becasue they were very supportive. i have a barkada in school and when i go to my dorm i have lot of ate's of who helped doin my assignments and projects. that was the scenario.i never felt alone and sad that time. i have a great companion all trough out in my highschool years.but now i felt alone. just because of the battery exam everythings changed. i was transferred to other school that it's very hard for me to adjust. suddenly i noticed that me, myself was already changed. the happy one became the sad one. yeah i felt depressed everytime my class was over. im very thankful taht cindy and paw never leave me. they really made me happy every now and then. without them i know i won't survive. they were my strenghts. i treasured them a lot. the only difference in y high school life and college days is now i learned to be more independent, i have to work for myself, i have to be courage because my future lies on me. on highschool for me everything will be easy. just one click and evrything will be ok. but now i have to be more responsible. i just have one year if was lucky enough to be graduated. there are many times that i told myself that i will study hard and focus on my studies but yet i ca'n't reall do. the problem is on me. im lazy. i hate my self for that. amft...
hay.. bahala n nga. i want to sleep again.. back to my bed..:0
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