we hang out last night at quattro with wynona. jan jan and adrian.. (jan jan and adrian were my new friends).. they pick me and wynona at our dorm by 11:30pm.actually we waited for so long.. 10pm were almost prepared.. excited?LOL. ahm.getting along with new persons is not easy.. at the quattro we started drinking except wynona because the fact that shes's allergic to any kind of liquor..i drink.drink and drink. im not doin this when im hanging out with ate and the rest of the gang..LOL. i just dance and dance.but last night, i just drink and drink. ahaha.. we talk a lot of things. and one time i found myself sahring my story with adrian. the breakup of me and jet. yeah i still remember those times. it's almost a month that we broke up but it is still fainful. i gain a lot of learnings from adrian. tru him i learned the other side of the guys. their perception in love.. i guess it's really unfair.. gurls gave all the guys want but wat guys do they still hurtin' the gurls. adrian said that there's no such thing fair in this world. i know he's just protecting their side..LOL. he told me that why i should be depressed when i know that the i guy i love never want me back again.why should i think of him if he doesn't think me at all. guys hurt too but they were not showy on their feeling because its something like that their ego as a man will be degrade as adrian said. but why their such a thing like that. why should be like that..he added it's not easy for a guy to cry in front of their friends unlike girls they can cry and show their emotions.. i really felt better after hearing those lines from him. he said also that il be thankful that jet leave me earlier bcause i don't deserve to feel this things. if jet doen't trust and accept why i should love him. right? people do mistakes.. i have to move on, he said. last night was my happy moment.. i release all my feelings. it's easy for me to share this problem with guys because i know they could understand me better..:0 the sad part is i vomit wat i drink.. ammft..:0 after that night i have a big helping hand from those new friends.. and he called me ms. depressed..:0 and the worst part is i got absent in my NCM class and i don't have a ret dem..i don't know now what to do i still dont feeling better now.. i want to sleep.and sleep..:0/tina Labels: emotera, tina |
