I'm back in my mood.. I bet I'm gonna write a good one today.. It's past 9pm, I'm back in Manila, stuck up here in dorm.. Aika is insisting me to come with her, another drinking session because tomorrow is their 1st monthsarry. *kilig. but I preffered to stay here.. As well as honeythei waiting for me in her dorm, of course another drinking session. :D

I went in province this weekend. I'm so excited going home coz finally I'm gonna watch season 5 of OTH.. My life now is dedicated in that tv series. I love gossip girl but OTH is much love, everytime Im watching it, it touches my soul. I think I'm one of them..And after this blog is finished I'm gonna watch Season 6. can't wait for that.. :)) BTW, I'm not supposed to be back today in Manila, I don't have class but I felt boring in my 2-day stay in home. My home sucks! People were busy in their lives. My mom was busy chatting with our neighbors, my sister was always sleeping and sometimes she joined me watching OTH. and My brother is busy in her playmates. OH everyone sucks. and I need to be back in Manila. It's not nice to be back in home... :((

This afternoon, while I'm on my way in Manila, There's so many things that pop up i my mind..
It's about who I am, about who I am becoming...

*Lately I don't know myself. I'm being selfish.. I'm a 4th year nursing student, few months from now I'll be graduated. But still I can't figure out myself working in a hospital, saving lives of other people, sleepless, haggard and really dedicated in my work. I'm so scared that in my one mistake I'm gonna kill someone. I really want to help those who are in sick but I'm really scared, scared in committing mistakes. I'm liable in my every actions... Im not good in it, even in emotions. I hate watching Grey's Anatomy, it's my fear. Fear in sense that someday I'm gonna be one of them saving lives of people and I can't do nothing and just stare them because of panic. But them (medical team) were really good in saving lives, and me I think I'll just screwed up.Hell no! till now I don't know what to do. My classmates said that there will be a job fair in school tomorrow and I don't know if I can make it.. Good luck on me! :]


P.S

I have a new haircut. And it sucks! I really don't like it! I screwed up again.. :((