im nearly to death..i can feel it.. :c

i went to province 2 days ago.. im not so aware that we have a family problem and accompanied by financial problem.. so here it goes.. almost our savings were gone. i don't know were did my mom put it. so i just have to believed on her stories to stop the argument. since my dad didn't got much angry with her. i don't know why.. i almost spent my whole allowance in nonsense things. and now regret so much.. dad knows that i have still my allowance for the whole school year. but it almost gone.i spent it on my "luho".. im too shophaholic. party every now and then. and my uncle borrowed 40k from me. and now im cramming where will i get my tuition fee for next week exams.. im gonna die!!!

my brother was suspended for 5days. he brought cigarette in their school. damn! he was caught by the sister. my dad got so angry and he almost kill my brother. i have nothing to do but to stop him and cry.. kelan ba magtitino ang kapatid ko???...

while having our dinner my brother asked me who is my rumor bf.. i can't utter any words, just tears flow on my eyes.. im so damn sensitive. i walked out and locked my room. i didn't finished my food. i cried so much.. im not mad with my brother. i just hate that no one believes on me especially in my family. how many times i should say that i don't have any boyfriend?why they can't believed on me. naiinis na talaga ako!!!!.. fuck that chismosa! hays...

and now.. i don't know what to do.. i just pull the syringe. and inject it to myself.. ..
see you on the crossroads..:c